As a teenager I convinced myself I could reach a point where God would no longer forgive me. It wasn’t the severity of my sin that would make Him turn away, but the consistency. It wasn’t the one sin I committed in an isolated incident it was the habitual ones that I could not overcome. I felt as if I would eventually max out my quota and God would choose to not offer forgiveness.
But, as I studied the scriptures, I have come to realize that thinking is completely wrong. There is nothing I can do that will make God not love me and no routine of sin that will force Him to ignore my plea for pardon.
Over the years, God has proven to me that He doesn’t just watch me flail around in the muck of my sin. On top of forgiving me, He offers me His strength as I seek to overcome it.
I have experienced the truth of Ezekiel 36:25-27 many times. In that passage, God’s promise is strong and empowering.
“I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And, I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.”
Because God forgives me and because He is teaching me to follow His decrees and keep His laws, I know that He has not abandoned me. He has not forgotten about me. And, He definitely has not given up on me.
On a regular basis, I will turn to that amazing passage and remind myself that God is still working in my life. And for that, I am grateful.